Should i tell you how i feel and Risk losing you Or can i afford losing you Losing you forever that i can’t afford.

I should be pleased to see you, but it hurts me to see you... knowing i’d never be with you. My heart aches and breaks and turns into pieces... the moment i see you...i wish I’d never seen you.

I had a conversation with you but you weren’t here to Listen to the pain and hurt you put me into . i had to fill the emptiness i have been feeling even tho i never wanted too. To.. Become someone who i promised myself i’d never turn into.

. It seems to me... No matter how i feel.. No matter what i say... No matter what i do... It’s useless to you... Even though i do it all for you.. It’s crazy how you make me feel.. Even though you’re not here. It feels so weird trying distract myself f...