Spotted Mango

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Journal entries from 1/19/19 ▫️◽◻💠◼◾▪



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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
She said, their I am. Chained at the shallow side of the ocean. Their is only one view to see, only one view that never sets in my eyes. Everything is calm as I sit. As I play around in the sand that surrounds me. Until the waters gently push their way...
At times we are in certain situations where we aren't being heard or forced to fit into a mold where we just barely squeeze into. Not for long! (P.s. my moon and rising are water signs. My house is...
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
2 years later, I became acquainted with the sea. The direction of forward holds little truth. As we pass by those who are moving forward too. My boat and I are only faced towards the open sea. Where our sights are set no matter the setbacks. Nothing c...
2 years after past paradise
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
PAST PARADISE: Wake Up, that’s what I say when my alarm goes off. The smooth guitar strums are the first sounds I hear when I open my eyes, next is the internal sound of my voice. Wake Up, there it goes again Wake up, I stare up at the ceiling. I’m fl...
10/16/17. 2 years later and I've became acquainted w/the sea.
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
I'm in love with the shadowed reflection of me in your eyes Each blink becomes a new perspective I know how I'm being seen You're watching yourself into me Absorbing my bright sparkling lights However dont be fooled Because we each hold a shadowed ...
What secrets are held behind those eyes?
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
If it's the case of you're asking for to much. Then, they aren't able to give enough. And you'll end up sacrificing to much or settling for just enough.
Another tweet by me
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
NOVEMBER: I'm not sure which day, but I can confidently say. We met on a day in November. As we stand surrounded by the mist and cool wispy air. I cant help, but to laugh. Laugh at the way you pose with me during photos. Laugh at the warmth you bri...
Almost a year now ♤
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
CREATIVE BLOCK: What's next? As I stare out glaring pass my reflection. All I see is a blank space. To some it is veiled as new beginnings, to others as a dead end. To some a neverending journey. As I stare out. All I see is a blank space. A space ...
At times I do get stuck in my writing. And it just sucks
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
To be safe, to be secure. What could be most yearned for? It holds onto what some people strive to achieve. Consistency paired with comfort and predictability. The perfect balance to merely move freely.
Just a tweet by me
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
LETTING GO: It is who you are. Even though you don't deserve. My loyalty holds no bounds. Weighted in the air. Only holding onto teardrops struck by betrayal. Never being able to be truly repaired. Its own energy forms. My loyalty is see through. Deep...
Sometimes people don't deserve you.
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
LOVE LETTER: I raised my eyes to steal a glimpse of your image. Caught casually in the act. All I was able to capture was my reflection; for a few seconds, inside those earth toned eyes, I became rooted. Franctic in my mind, I signaled a smile in retu...
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
SPACED OUT: My heart aches under the full moon. I'm unable to unwrap these constraints binding my chest. As the tension increase, I dont understand how'd they manifest. Unable to connect as you stand beside. Untuned, I'm planets far from you. As I tr...
Imagine living in a place where you last day dreamed of? Mines was space...and it took a dark turn *badum tss
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
VULNERABILITY: Their is always so much tension and stress within vulnerability alone. I can sense my shoulders crunching as I begin to give life to these first words. My mind is layed out and scattered. Yet, I'm the one who is jumbled, trying to pie...
Putting yourself out there to a world full of people. Is really scary!!
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
I opened my mouth and along came the particles of my heart floating along. Naturally without a thought it was being brought out.
I cant help it. I'm a romantic ♡
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
PRESENT: See me here, not figuring out a past or an unmade future. Meet me here, I refuse your unrealistic expectations to be weighed on my shoulders. Whatever you create I should have a say. Because input from me that you're wanting to place would l...
Enjoy the moments. They are what I want to hold on too
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
NO SIGNAL FOUND: I stare at you and fall silent. No words are coming to mind as you stare at me. I try not to make contact with those dagger eyes. Outside I remain stable, inside I am scrambling around for a sound. At least an utter to shake this sil...
When I panic, my mind goes into overload
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
TODAY: I heard someone say your name. And dared not to turn. In hope to never catch a glimpse of your face. These past few months just really hasn't been my day. Today just really isnt my day. Trapped in this world of mirrors surrounded by whirlwinds ...
Inspired by the movie "Us" specifically during the last dance scene.
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
DRUNK THOUGHTS: My eyes are having trouble holding this weight of sleep right on the lids. As if the sleep is trying to grasp from the top of the eye lash to slide below. I dont wish to hold onto sleep. I would prefer to have my eyes hold onto you.
For me these begin after 12am
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
PERSPECTIVE: I poured you a glass. And heard you say enough. Glass half full, to me it looked half empty. I poured myself out onto you. And heard you say enough. You're half full. And I'm left half empty.
Half full or half empty? Are you the water? The cup? Or the hand?
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
HELLO: It didnt start at our first hello. You would always come by and our energies would combined. Beginning to amplify. Within each moment, we would grow. And even though I don't remember on what season when we met. I do know. It didnt start at ou...
Sometimes you never know how close you can get with someone after saying hello
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Spotted Mango . 4 years ago
I close my eyes and soak in the sun rays With no weighted thoughts holding me down. I'm ready. For when I open my eyes to poof into particles and have the sun rays beam me up towards the light
I once thought when I was younger. If we died, we would turn into dust particles and roam freely w/no worries
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